It’s incredibly easy to get lost in your own thoughts, goals, and desires and come out frustrated. Unanswered callings sometimes cause us to feel stressed and overwhelmed.
Why is this the case? Why do we feel agitated when we can’t do everything on our todo list, accomplish all our goals, or live in the way we envision?
After reflecting deeply on the times when I’m most frustrated I realized most of these feeling arise from a need to be productive, a need to feel that I’m accomplishing something, or that every activity makes sense and can help me in life.
If I’m just sitting around or working on things that I don’t understand or can’t explain in terms of what I want to get out of it then I get bothered. I think these feelings are rooted from life conditioning where I always felt the need to explain every activity, want, desire, and goal in terms of what benefit I hope to get out of it.
Yesterday I attended a Wisdom 2.0 meetup bringing together like minded individuals that are interested in the interaction between technology and living a life of mindfulness & awareness. As I met people and was asked my reasoning for attending I struggled to come up with an answer. Deep down I wasn’t there for a reason, I didn’t have any expectations for what I wanted to get out of it or how this meeting will fit into any life goal I have.
To be honest I didn’t want a reason. I was attending with no expectations. Intuitively it just felt like the right place for me to be and that was enough of a reason to attend.
After reflecting on this experience, I realize there are so many times in life where I’m fighting myself. Intuitively I feel the need to do something but then my mind interjects and says that my time is better spent pursuing another activity or a hybrid activity that could add to my skill sets or fit into some higher life goal.
Before I know it I have a list of goals to tackle that I don’t resonate with deep down, and adding insult to injury this list of goals then causes me frustration and anxiety.
I’m going to spend at least the next 30 days listening to my intuition and basing activities around what feels intuitively right as opposed to doing things that I think I should be doing. It’s day 2 and things already feel much better and more in alignment.
“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something – your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. Because believing that the dots will connect down the road will give you the confidence to follow your heart even when it leads you off the well worn path; and that will make all the difference.” – Steve Jobs